i run

So this is what I imagine I look like when I run..But in reality it looks a lot different. But it is true and somewhat little known part of me unless you can catch me out on the road. I squeeze them runs in when I can and that means I run at night a lot of times. Yep, I'm a headlamp, soon to be reflective vest wearing running nerd. You see I usually quit in the winter but for some reason Ive got it in my head that hey one can run in the winter. However, that means my leisurely runs at warm 7:30pm after the spawn go to bed, in the summer; turn into grit my teeth, frozen nose and toes running. It chills me to think of it as I sit here with my hot cocoa. So why do I run? Well, I'm not good at hitting the gym and working out...that's like doing time in a hamster wheel..sorry hamsters, it might be the thrill of your life to spin spin, but not me, I need the change of scenery to distract be from the pain. That's also why I like Zumba ..but that is another post. Need another reason? It's pretty cheap. I mean really all ya need is a pair of GOOD running shoes everything else is just fluff. Unless that is you run at night and after 2 months of picking..yes picking ones way through the dark on a trail by traffic light is not pleasant or leisurely.It dawned on me that (more like my husband rolled his eyes and handed me a headlamp)that a headlamp would be beneficial. So now I'm thinking it might be good for traffic to see me and perhaps I should invest in a vest..hehe.Although it was kind of fun running stealth not getting honked at..and not having a strong overwhelming urge to use hand gestures was enjoyable. However, as I increase my distance again I have to do battle with vehicles and the complete lack of sidewalks or lights in my neighborhood.Bike lanes. we have those.weird huh? But I feel bad taking over those and I don't need Bicyclists having uncontrollable hand gesture urges towards me..they need to keep their hands on the handle bars, you know? So here I am sacrificing my sense of style to running in the dark..and no its not like dancing in the dark. This is where I realized that running is a larger chunk of who I am than I once believed. It used to require some kind of training goal i.e races. I've run three Half Marathons and a dozen or so shorter distance races. But I have gotten to a place where I don't need those to continue running I run simply because it shakes the cobwebs out of my head. Its very peaceful running at pace to inspiring music and the clean scoured smell of the desert.I have know one to please but myself in those moments. Its a great feeling and afterward I'm a nicer mommy and a better wife.