Chicken

So I dug a hole today, not to plant and bring new life to abandoned soil. The soil will be welcoming back one of her own soon. I thought about it as my girls prepared ( ha) for bed....Not to wide but deep, so other animals would not disturb, and away to keep contamination at bay. Plastic? seems artificial, well it is. I had to tell my daughters today that I was unsure that one of our chickens was going to make it through the night. My eldest caught the horror..no despair...helplessness as I examined the bird to confirm that things had worsen and there was nothing more to do. She knelt to pray ..but she told me she didn't know what to say. I helped her by explaining that we need to pray to ease Rosie's suffering. My eldest begged me not to tell her sister..its her sister's chicken. My husband as created a entire anthology of stories from these chickens some nights he would regale the kids about the various adventures that the chickens would have....I never thought it cruel..but its feels like it to hear Ro recount the stories about her chicken through sobs....as she looks through the window at Rosie moving her wrist so gently as she waves goodbye. Yeah, I know its a chicken...at most it was a pet ...but I can't help feel heart ache for the creature...Dying ...slowly emerging from her coop as the others have already slipped passed her. pecking listlessly and without focus...isolation..... the others have nothing to do with her. I put the others away and allowed Rosie to roam free..... then I start digging I am hoping that she is off in some corner breathing her last breath but she is not. I find her waiting to enter the coop as night falls. I wish I had a gun..a knife, a lethal dose of something .. O not sensitive, to desire that?Or in sensitive to deny it. I have heard so much about death and loss lately it makes the heart weary heavy.. This has just help me feel it observe it more keenly..not so much as a true loss but the taste or a tiny inkling of one....knowing how some right now are feeling more so in a monumental earth shattering way...How can I say anything of comfort...without sounding trite or chicken. Rest well Rosie.